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Fear

Fear is here
fear is there
fear is around us
everywhere.

Fear is yours
and fear is mine
fear is inside us
counting the time.

Fear can slay us
fear can crush us
fear will help to
squash us and push us.

Fear for this
and fear for that
fear just wants to
pull till you snap.

Fear is frightened
fear is scared
fear can show us
how problems are shared.

Fear is only
as big as you let it
fear will help you
be strong and forget it.

Fear is wise
fear is smart
fear is inside
your soul and your heart.

Fear is only
the tool of your mind
fear will help you
be strong and unwind

Fear will promise
fear will cry
fear will listen
when you stand up and try.

Fear will shrivel
and fear will hide
fear will go running
to a place far outside.

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This was originally posted here on September 24th 2011. (edited)

 

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Deep within

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Candles bring with their dance of light
a certain kind of peace in the darkness
and there they create shadows
where the monsters live
and where the pitiful beat of change, aches to escape

The sorcery begins deep within
as the wax slows the ticking screams of time
and there
shadows awaken his soul’s dark remnants, of before

These malevolent madnessess of poetic strangulations
bring a curse upon him
and so he succumbs to the shadows of doubt
and the nakedness of fear

This peace in the darkness
this certain kind of, hope
drips to create patterns on the cold dark of his mind
where the monsters live
and where these creatures are screaming, deep within

and so dear friends
the wind is blowing beyond the window
bringing with it, remnants of tomorrow
where time is catching up with his pen
and where the mirror, reflects the candle flame’s

end

blinded by the darkness of his soul

in the darkness of his soul
he confronts his fear
and as the clouds break
he is blinded
and as anticipation builds
… tears fall in his solitude
and once more he is blinded
by the darkness of his soul …

The dragon within

The dragon within us all
waits in heated remembrances
for us to call upon
when, in the winter of our times
we feel the need for a little warmth
a little protection
a little fire to harden the clay of resistance
against the ever-growing fear
of apprehension
and the anticipation of what is before us

First night nerves

Well!

I finally did it, I went to an evening of live poetry readings to read some of my poems.

It was in a café I sometimes visit in Wolverhampton called WildBytesCafé and they have a monthly event called Viva Voce. I was rather nervous, or maybe a bit more than rather 🙂 as I’ve only read my writings in the writing group I go to, or here on my blog and on YouTube. I was assured it was a cosy group which made me feel better.

We started at about 7.30 and read round the little group. I think I read about 6 poems and the piece I’ve written here called Love! and they were well received so that made me more comfortable with the sharing.

When I read my poetry here with just me and the microphone I get involved with the words and my emotions and feelings take over, so I was worried I would get too emotional and not be able to finish anything! While reading a couple I could feel myself falling into the self-conscious “doubt? agony? frustration?” of myself and so I had to control my breathing with a little extra breath here and there and maybe a little cough to disguise my emotions (I could feel them trying to break through).

As is normal with a group we chatted about this and that, which also helped to ease me onto the next poem.

They serve lovely food there too 🙂

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Well!

I was out last night at my local pub and noticed it was more busy than usual for a Wednesday so while chatting to the barmaid, while ordering another round, I found out they now have an Open Mike Night every fortnight, and she had to say it didn’t she 🙂 she said anyone can come up and sing or perform or even read poetry, well with a couple of pints of Guinness inside me I happened to mention that I’m a poet and only last night I did my first live reading, so, she pointed someone out who I should speak to and we chatted and then a few minutes later I was visited at the table and we discussed me coming to read at the next event (he wanted me to get up and read there and then, ha ha not a chance!) so it turns out I’ve talked myself into reading in a pub in two weeks time, but this will be even more scary as I’ll be standing up in front of lots of people, GULP!! Aaaaaaargh RUN AWAY!!

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